rewind a few days... i was thinking a lot about God, fight club, the economy, and my lack of organization skills and decided i was finally going to start on my winter projects. most of said projects were not letting the things that i own, own me (fight club) so i started gutting my spare room also known as my closet. things were a hot mess so i had piles upon piles spilling out on to the floor.
i was so proud of myself for the decluttering and deciding how not attached i've become to things. after all, Jesus walked the earth with nothing - all this is material and really doesn't matter.
and then "it" happened. our laptop got sick and went in to a coma. devestated would have barely captured how i was feeling. crying, cursing... the whole nine. and then in the middle of my selfish rant i realized how attached i was to this stupid material possession. you can take my phone away for a week but losing the computer made me feel like i had been cut off from society. and then i cycled in to guilt. as people in haiti and california are losing everything i am being a brat about a computer. but God placed it on my heart and i'm thankful for that.
long story short, the computer is fixed, my photos are restored, i will become much better about backing up my projects, and as always, I will consider myself blessed that I know the Lord and his grace.